Where to start?

This is my first blog, so please bare with me.  Life has so many up's and down's and things are always changing.  That is what this blog is all about.  My life.  Where I have been, where I am now, and where I am going from here.  There have been many changes in my life in the last 4 1/2 years that it's not even funny.  January 2007 I was unhappily married, had 3 wonderful children living with me, owned a 4 bedroom house in a pretty little suburb in MD.  Now I am seperated wishing I was divorced, none of my children live with me, and I live in a one bedroom studio apartment in Baltimore City with a man that I love more than life it's self.  Yet I know that I am blessed in many ways.  There have been times in the last few years when I have had no place to live except in my vehicle.  Then I lost that and had nothing.  I have had to move in with my mom and whoever else I could find to stay with.  So being on my own again and once again having my own vehicle is a major blessing to me everyday.  Life is not perfect, who's is?  At times life even sucks.  But I get past those moments and move on with life.  Sometimes I wonder what else can go wrong in my life.  I hate when I get like that.  Things have gotten so much better for me and D.  Now that he is working, things are a lot easier.  I may not be working, but at least I have my unemployment.  That's something.  I sometimes worry about what will happen when I don't have my unemployment any more, but I try not to dwell on that too much.  It scares me to think about it.  I don't think I will be able to work anymore.  Between the depression I suffer everyday, the arthritis, and the asthma, I have trouble getting out of bed somedays.  But I am determined to start working on these issues.  I may not be able to cure them, but I will be able to deal with them better, and Lord willing, I will be able to ease the symptoms that keep me from living my life to the fullest.  These days, the fullest is sitting in a chair all day doing nothing.  I have been researching on the net for ways to help myself without filling my body with tons of pills on a daily basis and getting no where. 
I have to get ready to go get D from work.   Normally I look forward to this time of day.  I miss him so much when he is at work.  But today I am dreading it.  We are arguing again, and I don't feel like dealing with it today.  I'm tired and depressed.  All I really want to do is go back to bed and get some sleep.  I hate feeling like this.  And I hate dreading him coming home.  We have agreed that we have some issues to work on.  And D has agreed to work with me to fix our issues.  But he hasn't yet.  Things are still the same and I'm afraid they will remain the same.  I don't nag him about it though.  If I have to nag him to get him to work on what he says he wants, then what good is it.  If he wants it as much as I do, then he should want to work on it as much as I do.  I've already told him that if we can't fix us, then I am going to leave.  I don't want us to end up hating each other.  I love him too much.  I would rather "end us before us turns bad."  We will see how things go.  I guess I should stop for now.  I will write more later when I get back home.